Da da dee da da AYY?

Lol, I am feeling pretty random tonight.

Today was a pretty good day for the most part. I had a job interview with the company my dad works for, JCI. It was interesting. I am praying that I get the position, one because I really, really, need it and two, it is a great company to work for and would do me well in the long run!

Whatever happens, I know God has a plan! On the other hand, My love is sick and I can not be with him. I hate it when he gets like this and I can't take care of him. But, until we are married we are just limited to the things we can do. :( Still, I wish I could be the one making him soup and telling him to go lay down. Lol. One day...

What do you think about this COLD weather!? I am loving it, although it was very nippy today! The only thing that I could do without is the part where the cold air slams you in the face and it takes your breath away. Lol. No thank you. Other than that, BRING it on!

I miss my daddy today. He won't be home again until Thursday, like every week. But today for some reason I miss him more than usual. Maybe it was because I was interviewing at his company or something...I dont know, really. I will be glad when he is home.

This weekend has a lot in store. I have a photography shoot on saturday, as well as an evening with the love of my life. On sunday we are going to another Christmas concert with my family. I love them. This time of the year makes me so happy.

However, being broke around Christmas comes with the worst feeling. I love to buy for people, but I am barely able to do it this year. Everyone is having a tough year, but I was reminded today that it is not the gifts that we give to each other but the gift that was GIVEN to us over 2000 years ago that counts...its the only thing that counts! How awesome. It made me feel a lot better. But, then again, I dont really care all that much about getting the gifts for myself, but I can not stand not buying my parents, jared, john, his family etc. gifts! Its taking a lot in me from not running to the stores and blowing up a credit card! Lol.

Oh well, this Christmas I think I will challange my family and friends to, instead of buying an extra "just want" gift, maybe go to the soup kitchen or go feed the homeless...I love that kind of stuff, and we need to do more of it! I miss working with the homeless and I need to start it up again.

Here are some pics of when Rach and I used to go downtown once a week with the homeless...

A heavy heart.

I have to ask God for everything...Life is overwhelming at the moment.

 The things that make me happy :

This man...John Cody Hestand. He is my world, my everything.

My best friend...She is always there to make me laugh. I love you Rach!

These three...are a mess. But so very loyal.

My family...three people who support me in all good things i do, and will never let me down. 

This is all I have...God, my family, John, rach, and my loving animals...its ALL i need.

What...I'm 21? Lol.

It's sad...I just turned 21, feel no different, just feel like 30 is getting close! Hah. Isn't that just sad. I still have 9 years!

Oh but I had a lot of fun though! John and I got dressed nice and he took me to Biloxi for the evening! It was so nice. He is always so considerate of me and always giving me the best he can and loves me so very much. I can't get enough of him. God has blessed me in so many ways! Bringing him into my life has made me a whole new person...and I like this Lucy. hehe.

Yes...i gambled. Get over it. haha. I had a good time. We ate at the resturant there at the casino, boy was that expensive! On top of robbing you of money on the slots, they charge you an arm and a leg to EAT! Stupid if you ask me. Next time we will be going out to eat somewhere else, then off to play a bit.

Casinos is not something I think I would do offten. A very easy way to waste money, and these days I need my money to go into "sure" places. Lol. But, for a first time experience, it was very nice. I enjoy all date nights with my honey. He is never short to susprising me!

Here are some pics...

At A Time Like This...

When I have lost all control of my feelings and anger...God reminds me of something so wonderful and good. Tonight was a bad night for me. Some people will do anything to hurt another or act in vengeance. Thank God for his power and peace!

When I first opened this blog I started writing a whole bunch of crap...pretty much. I was bashing and writing how some adults just needed to grow up if they were going to call themselves adults...Then, i got a facebook notification. It was from a lady whose status I had commented on about those persons with special needs. I had commented that God made them so special and I aggreed with what she said about them not being sick and what not. Persons with special needs are such a blessing. So, I read her comment, she told me about her nephew. And my heart just filled so warmly.

God used that to change my whole feeling at that time. I am renewed. Wow...what an AWESOME God we serve! I give him all the glory and honor. These small little blessings are what makes my world go round.

Thank you God! I pray this for all of you!!!!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone! Today has been a great day. I got up around 8:30 to help mom in the kitchen with food...yum. John came over and we ate around 12. Then it was christmas decorations and a little shopping! Then ended with a sweet movie, while wrapped up in John's arms. (gushy?) haha.

I LOVE this time of the year. We actually started listening to Christmas music today in the car! Love, love, love it! I know I will probably get tired of it in a few weeks...but its here! I am very very happy today. I guess I just have so much joy and happiness around me. God is good!

I have a lot to write about, but no time. I have a lot of experiences to share...

I will write more later! As for now...GOODNIGHT!

Making It Simple

It has been forever since I have last post on here. I miss writing on here. I used to use it to get some feelings out and progress on my life and so forth. As of today, I have made my life simple again. I asked myself..."what is the point in rushing things, trying TOO hard, wishing for more, yada yada yada"...when in reality, I am happy with my little simply life here. I have my family, my parents support me, believe in me, my brother, well...he is just there, but I know deep down he is supportive, John, oh the love of my life, he shows me nothing but gratitude and love, he respects me and my decisions, he encourages me to do the things in life that will make me a better person and supports me in decisions and risk that I take each day and he is always there when something goes wrong and I need someone to cry on. He is my rock and I love him so so much. My best friend, Rach. She is going to Haiti on Tuesday...for a month. I am really going to miss her. But she has some really exciting things going on there and I am so happy for her. When she comes back I will have to tell you guys all of the good news! Also, we are starting up some stuff together for Haiti...super excited. But above all of this, she listens to me when I need it most and gives me the words I need to hear to get me through the "whatever moment" I am in at that time. MOST OF ALL...I have God! Isn't that just awesome. Of all of these wonderful things...I, I can say, I have God. :) Badabing! It makes me happy all over. I know he is behind me 100%. I know that I will fail at some things, but I will also triumph at many things! Because he has told me so. In life, we have to make hard and sometimes harsh decisions. With this, sometimes it causes for hurt, pain, and misunderstanding. I hate this part of life...but in the end, my spirit feels so much better. Today, my life was simple...I feel so much better. In all of my weakness and pain, God teaches and has taught me a lesson...Each day does not go without significant meaning. You are significant. I am significant. And He...He is the one who makes it all possible!

With all my love and prayers to all of you who read this...make your lives simple. Live as if you were dying.

LeM Photography- fo sho?

This past week my friend and I have taken charge and gone forth with making my company, LeM, bigger and get off the ground. We have gotten a lot of emails and phone calls about the business. Kellee does amazing advertising work. We also have a HUGE potential big gig! I cant go into it right now but when or if it happens I will be sure to let you guys know. All I can say is God is good.

Life this week has been...lazy. Lol. Besides working a lot on the computer and getting LeM out. I have been spending a lot of time with my lil buger bear (aka Piper). She is Kellee's lil baby girl. She is precious. We have been just hanging out and enjoying our time together. Some other job applications were put out...that wasn't fun. But we need money coming in asap.

Here are some pics from the week.

UHH!

I do not feel myself right now. Today I was constantly reminded of things that I need not being told. Have you ever had those kind of feelings?

I just felt like everything someone said was directed at me in a wrong way. Grr! Im touchy tonight. Im tired...and I miss my man. I miss him so much. I got to spend a little time with him tonight, but games and pictures had to take place. I just want to cuddle up with him and sleep.

I do not like stressful situations...I feel so in the way. :( Oh boy...I hope I can sleep well tonight!

Is It Just Me, Or...

Is it just me...or is life just so grand sometimes that you can't help but smile!

Today...life is grand! Lol. Thank you God for a good day. :)

7 Pounds Down!!

Wow...one week...7 pounds down! Yay!!!! To be exact however, I could have lost more, because we weighed out first weigh in on the forth day...three days later on day 7, I was down 7 pounds! It is the most awesome feeling! Since then, Rachel and I have been walking/jogging three miles every day. We are hoping to boost the process just a little bit more! I can not describe this feeling. Taking control of your body in a positive way is so exhilarating! (spelling?) It is also a very emotional experience! My friend and I had made a list of incentives and goals that we wanted to reach, other than weight...and when I think about them and how soon they could be accomplished, I tear up. Loosing 7 pounds made me numb. Because i thought, wow...Lucy You Can Do This! Nothing is IMPOSSIBLE with God!!! Amen! Whew....I am feeling good tonight!

Oh not to mention, I got a job! haha. I started today. Its temporary and I am still looking for something new and better, but for now...ITS MONEY! lol.

I am amazed!

Just MAYBE This Will Work...Yes. It Will.

Today has been a very hard day with the diet. However, I did stay up ALL night with my best friend because of not feeling good and scares that were going on around our area. We ate a super early b'feast (for us) and had no sleep. I went to John's and driving over there was so hard. I could barely keep my eyes open. When I got there...my poor boyfriend was so kind enough to let me sleep a few hours...but boy did I wake up in a funky feeling/mood. It was not pleasent. I was hungary and didn't know what to eat that I could get to fast because being on a low carb doesn't really give you many choices. Ended up going to Mc'D's and got a mcdouble with no cheese and no bread...sounds yummy huh. Lol. Well, it did help my mood alot but I was still hungary. John and I came back to my house where I was going to cook, but then decided to wait to cook until around dinner time, becaues I knew if I ate early I would have a problem about 9 or 10 at night. Not a good thing! Here is one thing that I think is just not fair!...GUM is one carb! What the crap. Hah. Oh well, I was actually able to enjoy one piece tonight because I had 4 carbs to spare. Aren't I lucky? :)

I believe that this diet will work...I have to believe it. It has been interesting to say the least. But I am glad that I have two others who are doing the same thing to lean on. It is not easy changing your lifestyle. But I am feeling "lighter" and seem to be feeling results...First big weight in, in about a week or so.

I keep telling myself...I can do all things through CHRIST who STRENGTHENS me!!! Amen? Amen!!
So far, Rach and I have come up with some yummy no to low carb entrees. Like a meat stir fry with peppers and cheese...YUMMY. I have to say, if you like meat...this is def. for you. However, I am sure it is much harder for a "sweets person". But, we took hot coco mix and froze it. It makes good for a little chocolate fix at night. Also, I am learning (from trial and error) how to make slushes with carb free drinks such as coke zero, usually only if it had been a good, (meaning low carb intake) day. We are only allowed 20 a day. Its hard! But, I believe it will be SO WORTH IT! Thank you God for giving me the strength  to make it through today! Around 12:45 I started to think I would not make it...but you helped me pull through! YES!

For all of you who are trying diets out there...Remember, God reigns. He gives. He answers. He seeks us. He wants us to have a temple in our being for his purpose. He is good. All the time. :)

Stress is Setting In

So today is the 27th...uhhh! Payments are due in a few days...what do I do? This no job thing is TERRIBLE! But, I have to keep saying "i left for a reason, i needed to go". I dont regret that part. I regret having no money and having to depend on my dad and mom for EveryThing...I cant stand it. I had an interview the other day. It was for part time. The lady was really nice and it seemed like a great place to work. However, they are doing like corp style interviews with callbacks and etc when its a one manned office with three shop guys in the back for a printing company.....whattt?? Lol. I dont know if I can depend on them. I also have a interview with Liberty National on the 2nd. Maybe something will come through. Im desperate.

On the other hand...in 21 days...it will be my one year with the love of my life. It is going by so quickly! I can not wait until this time next year...wheww...what an exciting time it will be :) He is one of the biggest things that keeps me going in all this stress.

God is good...all the time! God is good...all the time! In pain or suffering...God is good...all the time! In heartaches and back aches...God is good...all the time! Amen!
Like Madea said...put "In Jesus name" at the end of your prayer...and thats the stamp to get it up there!

Here are some pics of what happy in my life... :)

Mom dunkin dad.

Another Friday

This is the last day of this week! Whoo Hoo! This weekend holds a lot in store for myself and family. Tonight, John is taking me out on a "halloween date" Lol. We are going to a haunted house and a scary movie. I haven't seen him in almost a week and I am really starting to miss him! So, I am very excited about tonight.

This morning I woke up to a phone call for an interview with Liberty National...I am not sure how I feel about it, but hey...its an interview! Thank you Lord. I also spent a lot of time sending out new resumes in a new format...thanks to dad. He got me the Microsoft word, home and student package! I needed it so bad!

As of right now, my cat, Sophie, is meowing and banging her head on my computer for attention...I think something is wrong with her today. She never wants attention! Lol. Maybe just a good day! I think I am about to go walking with Bama for a while. He likes to get out since we dont let him run off. But, he also needs one on one time with me.

I have so much to thank God for. Even though  I have no money, no job, cant pay my bills, having to rely on my most wonderful dad for everything. It stinks! Sometimes I regret walking out on that HORRINDUS (spelling? oh well its my version) job...but then again, where would I be now If I hadn't listened to my gut feeling about it that day.

I know God has a reason for everything...its his timing I have a problem with :) Lol.

Spending time with Dad

This past weekend I decided that I was going to New Orleans to spend some time with my dad because I haven't gotten to in a long time. So far, its been nice! Yesterday I went with him to his job site and watched them work and was very interested in the two cranes lifting a, I think he said 47 ton, peice of equiptment. Then went up into the equiptment room to watch them pull it in and hook everything up. Very interesting process! These guys did a lot of hard work too... You dont really realize how things are put together until you go see them for yourself and see the ins and outs of putting together the things that make our lives so much easier. It amazes me how far back and how much harder the jobs get and go...You have the finished building with nice cool air, behind it, are cranes, hard hats, sweaty men, lifters, etc. Behind them are the people who take materials and put the machines together. Behind them are the manufactors for each peice of copper, steele, wheel, handle, etc. And it just keeps on going. It makes you think...

But, I have really enjoyed learning! Here are some pics of yesterday!