Just MAYBE This Will Work...Yes. It Will.

Today has been a very hard day with the diet. However, I did stay up ALL night with my best friend because of not feeling good and scares that were going on around our area. We ate a super early b'feast (for us) and had no sleep. I went to John's and driving over there was so hard. I could barely keep my eyes open. When I got there...my poor boyfriend was so kind enough to let me sleep a few hours...but boy did I wake up in a funky feeling/mood. It was not pleasent. I was hungary and didn't know what to eat that I could get to fast because being on a low carb doesn't really give you many choices. Ended up going to Mc'D's and got a mcdouble with no cheese and no bread...sounds yummy huh. Lol. Well, it did help my mood alot but I was still hungary. John and I came back to my house where I was going to cook, but then decided to wait to cook until around dinner time, becaues I knew if I ate early I would have a problem about 9 or 10 at night. Not a good thing! Here is one thing that I think is just not fair!...GUM is one carb! What the crap. Hah. Oh well, I was actually able to enjoy one piece tonight because I had 4 carbs to spare. Aren't I lucky? :)

I believe that this diet will work...I have to believe it. It has been interesting to say the least. But I am glad that I have two others who are doing the same thing to lean on. It is not easy changing your lifestyle. But I am feeling "lighter" and seem to be feeling results...First big weight in, in about a week or so.

I keep telling myself...I can do all things through CHRIST who STRENGTHENS me!!! Amen? Amen!!
So far, Rach and I have come up with some yummy no to low carb entrees. Like a meat stir fry with peppers and cheese...YUMMY. I have to say, if you like meat...this is def. for you. However, I am sure it is much harder for a "sweets person". But, we took hot coco mix and froze it. It makes good for a little chocolate fix at night. Also, I am learning (from trial and error) how to make slushes with carb free drinks such as coke zero, usually only if it had been a good, (meaning low carb intake) day. We are only allowed 20 a day. Its hard! But, I believe it will be SO WORTH IT! Thank you God for giving me the strength  to make it through today! Around 12:45 I started to think I would not make it...but you helped me pull through! YES!

For all of you who are trying diets out there...Remember, God reigns. He gives. He answers. He seeks us. He wants us to have a temple in our being for his purpose. He is good. All the time. :)

Stress is Setting In

So today is the 27th...uhhh! Payments are due in a few days...what do I do? This no job thing is TERRIBLE! But, I have to keep saying "i left for a reason, i needed to go". I dont regret that part. I regret having no money and having to depend on my dad and mom for EveryThing...I cant stand it. I had an interview the other day. It was for part time. The lady was really nice and it seemed like a great place to work. However, they are doing like corp style interviews with callbacks and etc when its a one manned office with three shop guys in the back for a printing company.....whattt?? Lol. I dont know if I can depend on them. I also have a interview with Liberty National on the 2nd. Maybe something will come through. Im desperate.

On the other hand...in 21 days...it will be my one year with the love of my life. It is going by so quickly! I can not wait until this time next year...wheww...what an exciting time it will be :) He is one of the biggest things that keeps me going in all this stress.

God is good...all the time! God is good...all the time! In pain or suffering...God is good...all the time! In heartaches and back aches...God is good...all the time! Amen!
Like Madea said...put "In Jesus name" at the end of your prayer...and thats the stamp to get it up there!

Here are some pics of what happy in my life... :)

Mom dunkin dad.

Another Friday

This is the last day of this week! Whoo Hoo! This weekend holds a lot in store for myself and family. Tonight, John is taking me out on a "halloween date" Lol. We are going to a haunted house and a scary movie. I haven't seen him in almost a week and I am really starting to miss him! So, I am very excited about tonight.

This morning I woke up to a phone call for an interview with Liberty National...I am not sure how I feel about it, but hey...its an interview! Thank you Lord. I also spent a lot of time sending out new resumes in a new format...thanks to dad. He got me the Microsoft word, home and student package! I needed it so bad!

As of right now, my cat, Sophie, is meowing and banging her head on my computer for attention...I think something is wrong with her today. She never wants attention! Lol. Maybe just a good day! I think I am about to go walking with Bama for a while. He likes to get out since we dont let him run off. But, he also needs one on one time with me.

I have so much to thank God for. Even though  I have no money, no job, cant pay my bills, having to rely on my most wonderful dad for everything. It stinks! Sometimes I regret walking out on that HORRINDUS (spelling? oh well its my version) job...but then again, where would I be now If I hadn't listened to my gut feeling about it that day.

I know God has a reason for everything...its his timing I have a problem with :) Lol.

Spending time with Dad

This past weekend I decided that I was going to New Orleans to spend some time with my dad because I haven't gotten to in a long time. So far, its been nice! Yesterday I went with him to his job site and watched them work and was very interested in the two cranes lifting a, I think he said 47 ton, peice of equiptment. Then went up into the equiptment room to watch them pull it in and hook everything up. Very interesting process! These guys did a lot of hard work too... You dont really realize how things are put together until you go see them for yourself and see the ins and outs of putting together the things that make our lives so much easier. It amazes me how far back and how much harder the jobs get and go...You have the finished building with nice cool air, behind it, are cranes, hard hats, sweaty men, lifters, etc. Behind them are the people who take materials and put the machines together. Behind them are the manufactors for each peice of copper, steele, wheel, handle, etc. And it just keeps on going. It makes you think...

But, I have really enjoyed learning! Here are some pics of yesterday!

Tuskit Died. :(

A while back I got two baby red ear slider turtles. I named them Tuskit and Tuttle. Tuskit was vibrant, had a more elaborate pattern to his markings, and loved to be handled and follow my fingers and stuff. Tuttle is suttle. haha. He has a solid marking and is duller in color. Further more, he is sweet, but doesn't like to be handled as much.

I knew Tuskit was probably getting sick, two days ago when he was breathing weird. My stupid self went off and left him and tonight when I got home, he was dead. I am so sad. I know he is just a turtle...but he was special to me. I get attached to my animals very easily. He was so cute. Now, im scared to death that Tuttle will die to. I have always read and had been told that they do better as pairs...so do I get another one for Tuttle, or give him away, or just keep him by himself. He and Tuskit played a lot. They were so cute. I also dont think that I have the proper environment for them. All though, I did everything the books said. I still think I may keep my room to cold for them and the water heater just isnt doing enough. Its all my fault. I could have kept him healthy. :(

This is sad...I know.

I miss you lil man!

Just A Tad Bit...MAD!

I dont understand this! I am so aggrivated. I am working my butt off to find work and my family gives me no credit for it. All I hear is well can you do this, can you do that, things that I dont mind doing around the house, but they are things that were once done by another individual as part of their duties. Now its, well (he/she) is working now so you need to...yada yada yada! Make me feel like crap why dont you! Go ahead, call me Ms.NoJob. I already feel useless. I don't spend money, cause I am about out of it. I dont go driving all over town, to save gas. I dont sit at home every day waiting on the world to change, God won't let me. And yet, people look so down on me. This one individual person who, now, has a job working evenings, thinks (he/she) is IT! They do whatever, leave food out, just like today...I walked in and the mayo, bread, meat, chips, and knives with mayo on them all open on the counter! I am at least trying to make a effort to cleaning up, making dinner, doing the dishes, cleaning house while my parents are gone! I'm to old to be here. I fight with a 16 yr old who has no respect and doensnt care about the world around himself/herself. UHHH! So frustrating. This one could get away with murder because no matter what is said or done, he/she will still believe they are right. One min they are disiplined and the next its "no, I dont have to" and they go on about their own business and noone wants to fight because it takes to much energy!

Lord help me live here...and help me to get out by this next year. Please!

What this individual gets to LEAVE OUT. 

 

Being Bored.

Have you ever been sitting around your house doing nothing and catch yourself wondering about the many things you could be doing and aren't. Lol. To me, thats boredom. FYI: its excatly what I have done today! Ha. I have done a few things today that were much needed...but other than that, I haven't even done my hair! Blah. Why do people do this to themselves? Its a must to often occurance to people.

Just a thought for the day..lol.

Uncertain Life

The title to this entry says it all, don't you think? I think most of us go through our daily lives feeling uncertain on the inside while we put on a mask of positive certainty for the rest of the world to see. I have started reading Amos and it has brought light to my current situation..no job, no money...etc. God has taught me that even in my midst of troubles, no job, and all he can still use me to his glory. I have learned that MAYBE God had a reason for me to be free or to have free time for this current day. But, have I really been listening and doing what he may be asking of me? I have had many sleepless nights, and not until recently have I began to think that maybe there was a deeper reason, than just being stressed out, for this also. My best friend told me to just sit up and say  "okay God, I am here" and see what happens. All this week it has been on my heart to read Amos...I am not really sure what I will get out of it but I am taking a leap of faith forward and going to see what God has out there for me. Its just an uncertain road. The only thing that I know for sure is that I serve one awesome God and he is alive!

God has been doing so much in my life lately as well as the lives of the people around me. There is so much that I want to jump for joy about. Have you ever had an "out of body" experience? They are scary and awesome at the same time. It is in my heart to reach others. I believe that God has told me to reach out to people...and i just havn't done it. Shame on my part. I love immersing myself in God...worship, gatherings with other fellowship, devo talk, prayer...I love it all. John and I have decided to go looking after a church that fit both our needs spiritually. The church we have been attending has been great. The pastor is the only thing really that has kept my interest. The music is to, well "concert" style. Lights, smoke, etc. Sometimes I feel like it kind of takes away. Also, I know noone there! Not a single person talks to you when they see you, noone fellowships within the service...its almost unwelcoming. I am needing a place where I can get immersed in and learn and grow deeper with other Christians.

I know God has a plan...I am just praying that he show himself to me and John.

"For I know the plans I have made for You"- I always like to quote scripture and then say "Love, God"

He is part of His plan...I know it! :)

Seward Farms

I just love the fall! It makes me a whole new person! Today John, myself, Jamie, and Kam went to Sweard farms for a day out of fun! It was awesome! Hayrides, animals, jumping pillow, corn cannons and much more. I love doing these kinds of things. Being outside and having a good time just enjoying what God gave us. Here are some pictures!