A Leap of Faith

Today is Tuesday, August 31, 2010, also known as the day I resigned from my job at Resources for Independence as a Lead DSS over dayhab.

Why?
    Because, of the hostel enviornement that was created by the administrion.
    The threating language that was used  towards myself and other employees.
    The stress levels that I went to.
    My job duties being compromised.
    Discrimination.
     And so much more...

I felt so much better after writing my letter. Today was awful. A certain person has continued to make me feel like a peice of nothing, ever since I started working there. I have put a lot into that job, and a lot of good has come from it...but its time to put my health and peace of mind first. Yes, I will be under a financial burdon for a little while. But out of all the times I have wanted to quit...this one just felt so, so, so right.

I am leaning solely on God. Pray for me!

Girls Night Out!!

Last night was so much fun! I went over to a really good friends, (Jamie) house for dinner, a wonderful dessert, pictures, good conversation, hair do's, makeup, and nail fun!!!! I haven't had my nails done in a long time! It feels kinda nice! Ha. Got some of my hair cut off, mostly just trimmed, new layers, etc.

I think every girl needs a night to just be with girls. I dont have many "girlfriends" because of the drama and besides Rachel, all of them are older than me, by more than a few years...haha. Sorry ladies! However, getting away from the guys, talking out our stresses with other woman who are, or have gone through the same things...IS REALLY GOOD FOR US! :)

Jamie and I laughed a lot. It feels so good to laugh. :)

Oh another note, Below are some pictures of the night, and also of a little puppy named Charlie. He is the sweetest puppy, but loves to chew on human ligaments. However, a few weeks ago, Jamie and Steve were walking on a walking trail out where they live, and walked past this little, beaten down, bleeding, tiny, unfed puppy. He had no hide on his back, no pads on his paws, he was bleeding bad, bugs were in his sores, his ribs were sticking very far out, he looked AWFUL. They immediately took him home and got him SO MUCH BETTER! His scar is looking really good, he has pads on his feet, and HE IS FAT! Lol.

I love seeing when people take care of those who cant take care of themselves...Im a huge puppy lover :)

This is Charlie!

This is his scar on his back. :(

A Day Is Good, Good Day It Is!!!

So, today is Friday, August 27, 2010! Thank you Lord I made it to this day! WooooHooo!

This morning started out kind of "psh" and I was so ready to go home and go to bed. However, once I got to work, got settled in at the office, got the clients somewhat ready for the day, it was POURING outside, and finally just was able to sit down, took a deep breath...I knew I was going make it. It was boring today, to say the least! Lol. However, no drama! Yes! A day with no drama....WOW. Thank you Lord! I love it when I have a day of no hassel. We basically just sat around, watched a movie, did some training, yada yada yada.

Some days I think I am at my witz end! Usually, that is most days. More like Monday through Friday! Isn't that just sad. I have a low tolerance for stress...well I take that back, maybe it is high, because I deal with it in huge amounts ALL the time, ask my family :) However, I feel so awful when I am down like that. It takes EVERYTHING in me to make it through the day, and not want to "hurt" someone. Sometimes I feel like I need a punching bag to relieve some huge, built up stress...Thats also what the gym is for, but, there is nothing there for me to PunCH! Haha.

God has shown me some awesome things, and I have had my own revelations on several issues. I love it, its wonderful, but I often have to sit back and realize also that God shows and moves on his time...and his time is perfect. I dont feel it most days, and the only thing that gets me through is prayer, and sometimes I feel like I dont know what to pray...I have to remember MY God is Faithful...I am stressed, but he is taking care of it for me...I have to learn to COMPLETLY let him have it, and believe that a way will be drawn out for me and that I will see it.

John and I are working on some financial things that will help us get closer to our goal as a couple...you want to talk about even more stress...say the word FINANCE. Yuck! Money is so touchy... :) I wont go all into that, but if you read this, and are a firm believer...lift up some prayer for me!

On another note! Tonight I am at the Bettencourt's home, taking care of their animals! John is coming over to converse on some things, have dinner, and movie. Then in the morning he is flying off to Dallas for a SHORT trip :( I wish I could tag along! But, I am staying behind and doing the girl thing with a few friends :) 

Gotta put aside my frustrations and move on with my evening!

John and I

Some Random Pictures!

John at Bass Pro...flirting with the animals!

My Parents at Bass Pro...(love them!)

To Much To Handle

Today has not been the best of days, however, it could have been worse. Sometimes I feel like I just cant breath. I have so much to do, in so, so, so, little time! Some days I am okay and content...others I am screaming in my head, "WHAT AM I THINKING?"..."HOW DO I MAKE THIS WORK?'..."CAN I REALLY AFFORD THIS?!?!?"...

I am so overwhelmed...Yet I know God is faithful. I know he will provide...

I was sitting in the Walmart parking lot with my clients today and we were watching these people that had been involved in a wreck (bumper to bumper) walking around, talking...etc. And I kept wondering to myself, "where are the cops?" No kidding, 20 mins later (we were still waiting on my co-worker) the city cop FINALLY shows up. Why in the world does it take so long for our LAW enforcement to show up some where!

I applied to this my life...in how we often want to rush things, but really, our "saving grace" may be coming, just a little slower than we had expected. Its so hard to be young, female, in love, working, stressed...and patient! I have a lot of negatives in my life right now, but, over all of them, one big positive thing still stands...I am God's child. And through all of this, he does have a plan for me.

Lord, let your glory shine down on me. May I see the path you have laid before me and walk on it gracefully.

I don't know how God deals with everyones problems...he is so busy working on mine!

Tonight was a good night. Boring, but good. Sometimes I think that the mind needs to be "bored". We use it so much, not to say that it is a bad thing, however, sometimes I think we "overthink" situations. I know I do. Today was just not my day. People were getting on my nerves, (work) its a full moon (know what that means), and I just felt like everyone was out to get me. I cant stand those days! I talked to God tonight, wrote down my prayer...I feel so much better! Have you ever felt like a million tons have been lifted off of you because of one conversation with God? Often, I forget how powerful He is, and how often I forget to talk to Him about my problems rather than everyone around me, or someone to take my stresses out on. I know one thing for sure...I dont know how God deals with everyone elses problems...He is so busy working on mine! Isn't that awesome! I love it how He often shows me things through the simplest of motions. I often will be doing, saying, or acting on things in a way that was unnesscary, and its like a light bulb when he says "Lucy, remember, I am in control"...WOW. It gives me chills. "To God be the glory...He said don't worry!" Isn't that an awesome saying!

I know I have probaby gone on about several different things in this blog, but I am just speaking my mind. Maybe something in it was useful for you. I know God has many great plans for us all...its up to us to seek his will and follow through!

Goodnight Everyone. :)

Our Story...

John and I have been together for a year in November. How we met...Well, I'm gonna tell ya!

In Nov of 2009, my best friend, Rachel, was talking to John's good friend, David. One day, while David was trying to get Rachel to go on a "date" with him, I made the comment (jokingly) "hey do you have a friend, we could double!"...I didn't realize that he would take it seriously! His reply was, "actually, yes."

A few days later the four of us met up to go bowling. Needless to say it was a hassel to get the four of us together, but I need not to go into all of that detail...haha. Apparently John really didnt care to meet me. :( However, none the less, we got together and started our night!

Bowling was SO FUN! John tried so hard to talk to me, and I was very attracted to him, but I dont think it was as laid back as we would have liked until I had an "uh oh" moment down the bowling alley! I went to bowl, except you know when the ball leaves your hand and you are susposed to step back...well I just so happened to go down with the ball!! To their amusement, I was so embarrased! Apparently I got up faster than lighting however. That, needless to say, was a huge ice breaker...The rest of the night was a lot of fun! I will never forget it.

John had to work the next day, so we were departing a little early. However, once we departed, and were susposed to go home and go to sleep...we stayed up texting a lot! I liked it...hehe.

So on and so forth...we are still together! A few nights and kisses later...here we are.

My First Thoughts...(about this blog)

So, today has been absoutly crazy! For those of you who do not know, I work for Resources for Independence, working with mentally challanged adults. And that job, wow, it can sometimes drive me insane! I came home today after a day of pure raging feelings and thought that it may do me good to start writing about issues in my life, the good things, love, Christ and my thoughts on him, my friends, family...etc. I like to write, and I hardly ever do it, so I figured what better way then to write a blog!

A little about me: I am 20 years old (until Nov. 27). I live with my parents (for the time being) and one brother. I have an amazing boyfriend, John Hestand. We have been together for almost a year now, and we are both VERY excited about our furture together! So many things are changing and happening at the same time! I love photography, I actually do a side business in photography. I take pictures of persons all over Mobile county and the surrounding areas. Right now, I am a Lead Direct Support Staff, ahead of Dayhab productions at the Resources for Independence office of Mobile. I have 3 dogs, Bama, Tide, and Nicki (after Saban)...Yes, I am a BAMA fan. Roooollll Tide Baby! However, John, is a pure at heart Texas fan! Last years National Champ. game was a tough ride home for us! Hah! I am a christian! Proud to be one.

A few pictures of this past year!!...

Moorer Family Reunion

Rachel and I in the hot tub

Snow In Mobile :)

Katie, myself and Nickolas

John and I in New Orleans

I am very excited about this new blog, you may here from me every day, or once a week. My life is crazy! Lol.

God Bless you!