Lucy...God Has You

I have not been able to really sit down and think about all that has happened in the past few days...and here I am almost midnight on a Tuesday night...thinking.

First off let me say, God is pure awesome. I do not know of another word that I can use to describe Him right now. There are a millions ways to describe Him...but awesome fits for now. We had the "The Great Awakening" conference at our church this past week with the Rodney Howard Browne ministries and Pastor Daniel Mcghee came to Mobile and preached Wed-Fri on going out, winning souls, having a hungry heart, being what God has called us to be. I craved being there each night. I loved hearing the WORD. I loved hearing things from the Bible. He spoke truth and I loved it. Even though I read my Bible, I do not do it everyday, and this past week helped me realize how much I was missing it every day. We actually crave the Word of God. I was so eager to get there each night because I was being fed. And boy, did my life transform.

I realized new things about myself and am new. God gave me visions and new dreams. He blessed me...Reminded me of how much he LOVES me! It felt so good. I was in His presence and it was like being wrapped up in HUGE arms, warm and comfortable, like a baby, held and prayed over. Jesus prays over us! That thought alone brings me to a place that I can not describe.

I pray everyone feels what it is like to be "drunk" on the Holy Ghost and be in the arms of Jesus.

And I knew I was doing right...when the attacks started to come. The devil was mad...hahahahahaha. So what! He doesn't like it when we are sold out for God. He will use any and everything to sway us. I have made up my mind to do nothing without Jesus though. Ya know, I was texting a friend of mine today and was talking about satan and Jesus...and I was amazed when I realized this...That when I typed out "God", my auto correct on text changed it to "god" (lower caps), then when I tried to type "satan" (lower caps) it automatically changed it to "Satan" (upper caps)!!! I was like OH MY GOODNESS! Even my cell phone is corrupt!!! I have a issue with upper capping someones name who tries to make my life worthless because I live in the arms of Jesus!

Since Saturday, I have been battling different situations, emotions, unnecessary hurts...
But when I let God in all my fears subside. I have had issues with "feeling guilty" when I have done nothing wrong, but the words of people put thoughts in my head. I have to go into everyday with God on my mind so that these "words" cannot hurt me like they used to. This was my facebook status Sunday...
 
Romans 8:1 "There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit."...Before judging or accusing, ASK for facts of a persons situation!

I FELT as if I was being condemned because satan was trying to attack me. But, I know who I am. I am a child of God. Therefore there is no condemnation in Him. I am loved and cherished. I am beautiful. I am special. I am cared for. I have a home in His arms. He is my guidance. He is my Savior.  


As you can see in the post below this one, I expressed a lot through artwork today. My heart has felt a lot over the past few days. I am not a drawing artist but I love photography, so I drew the best I could and then edited them with my pictures. Haha. But God can use all of our gifts in many ways! I felt broken and hurt...but God restored my heart to a bigger and better place. Sometimes our families, friends, churches, or even strangers can say or do things to make us feel "unloved", "unwanted", "forgotten",... and so on. But remember...

God Never Forgets Nor Forsakes Thee! 

Express Yourself!

The Cycle of My Heart....All In One Day

When looking at these pictures...I hope you see, get, and understand what I was portraying through them.
God bless!!

Mixed Emotions

I am blessed.
I am forgiven.
I am God's child, born again.
I am Holy.
I am set free.
I have a financial blessing on its way!
I am dead to sin.
I will bring those unsaved to Christ.
My inner spirtual beauty will show vibrantly!

Yet...
I miss Chris.
I worry about him being gone.
I worry about my family.
Health.
Weight.

But In The Name Of JESUS.... Glory to God!

Worry About The KINGDOM GROWTH...Not Chruch Growth

Last night was the first night of The Great Awakening event at my church with Pastor Daniel McGee, whom is from Tampa, FL. out of the Rodney Howard Browne Ministries (revival ministries). First off let me tell you about worship. I felt so good up there. Those of us on the worship team had a chance to sit there and focus on where we needed to be in order to usher in the worship. The music sounded wonderful to my ears. The third song was a little shaky but mainly because it was the first night that we had ever sung that song and hadn't had a chance to practice it. But still, all in all, worship was exactly what it needed to be.

Pastor McGee started talking on having the "hungry heart" and starving to know more about God and starving to have the power to heal, evangelize...etc. That when we have true faith...we have works that follow it up.
Matthew 5: 6 "Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled."
He went into the Book of Acts. How this book should be the operation of the church. We still have the power that is available to us by God. Acts 1: 8 "But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth!" As in Matthew, Mark, Luke, John, and Acts...we are called to "Demonstrate that Jesus is alive!" We are to seek the Holy fire of God. Matthew 3:11 " I baptize you with water for repentance. But after me will come one who is more powerful than I, whose sandals I am not fit to carry. He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and with fire. His winnowing fork is in his hand, he will clear his threshing floor, gathering his wheat into the barn and burning up the chaff with unquenchable fire." Meaning this: Open your heart up to the Lord and all those things of the world, those stresses, the hurts, pain, anger, evil...all of it, he will come in and BURN it all out with UNQUENCHABLE FIRE! For there you will be set free!

About the anointing... ALL of us can have it! It is meant for EVERYONE! God is not a choosy God, he is not looking for millions do go, he is looking for a small group...at this time, and the more we go and save, the more those will go and save...2 turn into to 200, 200 turn into 2000, 2000 turn into 2 million....The numbers will turn with one person taking the first step. Will you be that person for your area? Will you be that person for your city? Will you be that person even for your family? Luke 4: 16-19 "The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind, to release the oppressed, to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor." This same anointing that Jesus is talking about here is the same that we can also have. The anointing comes on the church for the same purpose it came to Jesus. It is for all of us, not just ministers and pastors...etc.

When do churches stop worrying about what size building they have, how many cameras they have to RECORD, how many chairs to have available, what sound system to use... When do churches stop and listen, and GET out there for God. It is about the growth of the KINGDOM...nothing else. Remember...YOU are the church. So this is talking to us as individuals just as well as groups of people. You are RESPONSIBLE because the Lord said, "go yee, unto alllll the world!"

A lot of people will tell you that these supernatural works are not needed anymore and that we dont practice them...But read it. New Testament states we can have the power. And the church will rise!

If you are not saved and want to be saved...and its IN YOUR HEART! Recite this:
" Dear Lord Jesus, come into my heart. Forgive me of my sin. Wash me and cleanse me. Set me free. Jesus, thank you that you died for me. I believe that you are risen from the dead and that you are coming back again for me. Fill me with the Holy Spirit. Give me a passion for the lost, a hunger for the things of God and a holy boldness to preach the gospel of Jesus Christ. I am saved! I am born again, I am forgiven and I am on my way to Heaven because I have Jesus in my heart."

Because you made a decision to be saved, all of your sins are forgiven. Always remember to run TO GOD and not FROM GOD because He loves you and has a great plan for your life!!!

Time Doesn't Wait On You

I just got finished watching the movie "The Rite". Very interesting movie to say the least. However, it went along with the conversation between Tha' DAP last night at our bible study. We were talking about demonic forces and how they effect us today and how they walk the earth and what their shapes and forms are. I believe there is a spiritual warfare still going on, has been going on, and will continue to go on. Satan will always try to get to you, to take over your soul...but it is up to you whether or not you open the doors for him to bust through with excitement because you are weak in a area. I know what an attack feels like. It happens often. Satan is always going to try and sway you, he will lie to you, tell you things are going to be okay when they aren't.

But God... He will save you from lies, deceit, pain, fear, shadows, HELL.... He battles for you everyday in spiritual warfare!

A lot of people that I talk to run from God because they know they have to give up a lifestyle that they may have lived for most of their lives. I can understand where it is hard to let go of something that you are used to and that you have known forever...but if they just get one sweet taste of the Holy Spirit, it puts a hunger in them they eventually they will no longer be able to ignore anymore. God feels good, when he breaths on you, it feels like your falling into a huge open ocean and cool water is rushing over you. (many may describe it differently, but its still a feeling of unspeakable joy, comfort, greatness)

I remember the first time that I really felt Holy Fire. I have been in special places with God before then, but this was a total surrender on my part, I completely let the Holy Spirit take over my entire being, and it was a feeling that I have NEVER felt before. I remember never wanting to come out of it, but when I did, I was exhausted! Literally exhausted. My body had just experienced something so powerful that I was ready to sleep. My body was tired...but my spirit was on fire, it was yearning to have more...I would be that exhausted 24/7 just to stay in that place. When we operate in that all the time...when we wake up and eat, drink, breath, think, and live God, our lives are transformed into something glorious. And when we can live like that, others see it on you, they want it to. I'm not saying that being a Christian is easy. I'll be one of the first to tell you that it isnt. You will face challanges all the time. Why? Because when you gave your life to God...You made satan VERY angry. He does just like most people do when they are angry...they seek revenge and want to hurt you. So he will attack in all kinds of ways...you have to keep pushing and know God has already won the war for you. As Chrisitans we are to be Christ like. One of our biggest goals should be to bring EVERYONE to Christ. When the thought of someone not going to Heaven gets to your mind, you should feel so saddened! It breaks my heart to know that not everyone will make it to Heaven. But what am I doing to change that? We are all called to evangilize in some sort of way. This does not mean that you will be a missionary to Africa, the US, or that you will work in a homeless ministry, or that you will take grocries for elderly people to their houses...or that you will prech, sing, and be an elder in the church. Working for God can be being a teacher in a public school system, and being a positive outlook for those children. It can be being the foster mom to those kids who never had a safe and christian home. We show God off in all that we do. We either promote Him or demote Him...Which are you doing in your everyday actions?

Are you saved? Will you go to Heaven? Are you doing all you could do?

Time doesn't wait on you... Get Saved. Bring others to God. Promote Him. Follow his ways...
Time doesn't wait on you...

Jesus Died For YOU...

The Lu-Cave

I don't think I have ever shared with you all my "lu-cave". LOL. We call it that because it used to be my dad's man cave. Poor dad. We take over everything...but no, he let me move out there. Hehe. I love it! Its like my own small apartment. Its separate from their house but close enough to still be "at home". I still have my independence, which is awesome. Sadly, I won't be here much longer, less than a year. But, we are all on to bigger and better things. Praise God! When dad first started on this room is was a big open room, cement floors, wood panel walls, and shelves all over the back wall. Since then, he has sheet rocked the walls, built a nice bathroom, put hard wood floors in, crown molding on the ceiling, got rid of the popcorn ceiling, painted and added all the water pumps, heater, air, etc. and hookups for when the kitchen goes in. It will have a fully functioning kitchen when it is all finished. That is the only thing it lacks. But I have been living out there approx 6 months now and I love it! Just showing off my decoration and my dad's handy work! I REALLY wish i had pics of how it looked before...if I stumble across any Ill put them up!

Bed Area

I love this piece of furniture and my book case

Living room area

Entertainment

This is where the kitchen will be. Right now its my closet/fridge/microwave etc. area

That door goes into the bathroom. Which is fully funtioning with a sink, toilet and a wonderful corner circle shower all glass. :)

Shampoo...?

I went to buy new shampoo today because the last shampoo I bought made my hair to oily and I was out of my good stuff. After I got back from the store, I realized how many shampoo's I actually use. Most of my bottles are empty now, and which I have now thrown them away...but I can't seem to find the ONE shampoo brand that I just LOVE. Probably because I can not afford the $15-$30 bottles that they sell in the salons but rather Suave Pro, Herbal Essences or TRESmme...yada yada...sometimes. Haha.

One day I won't have to worry about money...I claim it to be soon in the name of Jesus! :)

All my bottles... LEFT lol

Newest tryout for this week...