Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Christmas Spirit

As a child I remember taking family drives through neighborhoods thoughout the city and looking at all the Christmas lights on the houses. It was always a great memory of mine. I also remember feeling that "cheer" was seen more and people seemed to be a little more happy. The past few days, as I have intentionally been looking for such things, I have wondered where it has all gone to. Perhaps the real reason for the season has been lost and so has the joy. I was on my way home from my brothers house last night and came through a neighborhood in Olive Branch just to look for lights and out of about 100 houses (est.), I literally saw two that had any kind of lights on them at all. One had a string of white lights on the roof and the other had a santa in the front yard. Not to put an "importance" on Christmas decoration, but I just feel like everything is missing its happiness.

Christ is the reason for the season. Seems as if he has been pushed out of our busy life styles as well. Everything this season is all about "what do I get". What happened to many communities going downtown to feed the homeless? What happened to making your next door neighbor a homemade card and a pie? What happened to inviting friends to different church events?

What happened to telling the story of Jesus?

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Why Do I Fell THIS Way?

This past week has been so rough for me. I am not sure why. I guess because I have been thinking a lot about being alone, especially during the holidays. I miss having special people around. I just feel like my temper is short and I am sad all the time. I put on a good smile a lot of the time, especially when I look around and see how sad everyone else in the world looks. Its just awful. This time of year should be cheerful and full of love. I mean, why shouldn't it! Jesus was born. Died for us. Loves us. But why can't I even be fully happy this time of year. There are a lot of things that I desire and I wonder if God will ever grant me the things I want out of life. Maybe I am just in a "funk" right now. Today during church my mind was in a million different places. The singing was amazing and I loved hearing voices blend so beautifully together. But any time someone got up to talk it was like a blur. I'm ready to feel good again. My emotions are so up and down.

I am visiting at my brother's in Jonesboro this weekend. Will head back home tomorrow afternoon. His girlfriend, Jessica is here and I just love her! So glad that she is apart of our family now. I hope to one day have someone in my life that is as good to me as she is to my brother.

I have been reading a lot. Love and faith stories. Maybe its not helping my mood any. When does a books story ever happen in real life...


Catch Up Post From My "New Start" Blog


Aug. 19, 2012 
Well, hello again everyone! This is my new blog! I figured that I wanted to start a new blog because through my old one and deleting all the post about life over the past few years would have taken to long. Besides, I'm turning over a new leaf in life and starting a new journey and I guess this means starting a new blog called "Thankful and Blessed" is very approaite. Over the past two months so much in my life has changed. As most of you know already, I did not get married. Thankfully. I called the wedding off a few weeks before the day. It was probably the best decision I have ever made. I moved out of my house and into a apartment on the other side of town closer to my job. It is safer, cleaner, I feel better there... just an overall better atmosphere. I am also a photographer now at Holland Studios in Germantown, Tn. Love it here. I enjoy my job, even though sometimes it can be hectic, its fun and refreshing. Nothing like getting to go to a job where you enjoy where you are. On top of that, I love photography, so that makes it even better. This past week I also decided to try a new church. Highland Church of Christ is a lot like Downtown in Searcy. (where I am from) Not very consertative and the singing was great, and those of you that know me know that singing is very important to me. Turns out, my boss and his family also go there. Lol.

As for my personal growth, I am seriously looking into going back to school. I want to finish out my degree and work in Special Needs Education. I am also working out everyday, and although it practacially kills me most days, just getting back into it, I am liking it. I am meeting new people and moving up in the world. I have been doing more for myself, trying to not worry so much about whats going on with others and trying to fix everything... cause in reality I cant fix everything, only God can. So I am rolling with the punches and moving forward. Not that I am stopping caring for other people lol. Just surrounding myself with people that are doing good things in life and moving forward as well. I have been coming up and praying on my 5 year goals... which i will be posting about soon.

I know God has a plan... happiness is in there and I am really starting to feel it. Money is super tight, bills dont always get paid on time... and at first I cried and stressed myself sick over it, then came to the realization that it is what it is and God is in control. Since then, things are looking up!

Well, I need to get back to work! Got a busy afternoon!

Thankful and Very Blessed,
Lucy

December 16, 2012- To Catch up read here...  www.thankfulnblessed.blogspot.com
I have decided to come back to "inside lucys mind" because of the past that has been written here. Its kind of awkward to have your past, when its not so good, plastered all over the internet. Some post will be deleted, but it also reminds me where I have come from. Life goes on. 







Friday, May 11, 2012

Life Goes On

Tonight is the first night that I have really sat down and decided to go public (via internet) about some situations that have occurred over the past few weeks. Most of you know by now that I made the decision to call off my wedding to Chris. I will not go into details because it is between us and God and because there are already so many lies going around that I just don't want to come down to that level. Every day I wake up I know however, more and more, that I made the right decision. I am happy...genuinely happy. This is a feeling that I missed! I am taking better care of myself, taking time for myself, working out, eating better...do what makes me feel good and happy and thanking God at the same time for showing me things in time!

So, life does go on! And boy, am I happy that it does. I have an amazing job at the biggest studio in Memphis. I also have my own place, my friends, my own money... my life! I am learning new things day by day and I couldn't ask for more. Now, of course, I could ask for people to stop making up rumors, assumptions, yada yada yada and just leave things alone and mind their own business... but people just don't do that. Its second nature to always be right.

I am happy. Point blank. I thank God EVERYDAY! Life can not go anywhere but up from here.

So, now that this is out even more publicly... say a prayer for both families. God does have a plan... and I can not wait to live it out. I know the lessons I have learned and they have been and will be so valuable to me.

Live every day as if it was your last! Love yourself! Remember your own heart is important to!

Love, Lucy

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Name This Holiday: Ressurection Day vs. Easter

Happy Easter to everyone! I don’t know about you, but I am so thankful that Jesus is alive! What a comforting thought to know that the man that died for us and saved us is alive by our Gods side. Some days I wish he was a physical figure for me to physically see and talk to and touch. But his Holy presence feels so good. I walked outside my house today to get some fresh air (sickness has overtaken my body today and I needed to breath in some cool air) and I saw almost every house on the street up from us had at least 10 cars in front of it and tons of families and friends everywhere. It was beautiful to see, however, I wondered if they really were celebrating Jesus’ resurrection or if they were just hunting eggs and bbq’ing. Now, I have most certainly done this to and actually wished I could have done it today with my family and friends, so in no way am I putting this down! Trust me…however between seeing this and while I was on facebook checking up on some friends and saw what my best friend Rachel wrote I just thought I would share some feelings on it. Rachel wrote on facebook: “…….” And I started to think about this statement and how true it is. We do a lot of “celebrating” in our “worldly” ways and they often over shadow the true and original meaning of why we even named this particular day a holiday.

I got a little curious and decided to look up some articles on why we call the Ressuriction Sunday, “Easter”. I went onto www.christianitytoday.com and read an article by Ted Olsen. Here is an excert from that piece.
why do we call it Easter?
---The fact of the matter is no one knows for sure, but our best bet comes from Bede ("The Venerable"), a late-seventh-century historian and scholar from Anglo-Saxon England. He says Easter's name comes from the Anglo-Saxon goddess Eostre, associated with spring and fertility, and celebrated around the vernal equinox. So there you go. As Christmas was moved to coincide with (and supplant) the pagan celebration of winter, Easter was likely moved to coincide and replace the pagan celebration of spring.
And while we're at it, the Easter Bunny comes from these pagan rites of spring as well, but more from pagan Germany than pagan Britain. Eighteenth-century German settlers brought "Oschter Haws" (never knew he had a name, did you?) to America, where Pennsylvania Dutch settlers prepared nests for him in the garden or barn. On Easter Eve, the rabbit laid his colored eggs in the nests in payment. In Germany, old Oschter lays red eggs on Maundy Thursday. If anyone knows why children in an agrarian society would believe a rabbit lays eggs, please tell us or a historian near you. We're all dying to know.---

So after reading this he goes on to state “enough of the pagan side of Easter and onto the Christian history… This excert read:

Thursday commemorates the Last Supper of Jesus, getting its name from the Latin translation of Jesus' saying that evening, "A new commandment I give to you" Mandatum novum do vobis. It is marked by foot washing and the blessing of the oils. But in various parts of the world, it has other traditions as well. The German word "to mourn" (grun) is very similar to the word for green (grÜn). So in Austria, Hungary, and much of Germany, today is GrÜndonnerstag: a day to eat spinach and green salad. This is not the only reason for eating greens: Passover is celebrated with karpas (a green vegetable, usually parsley) and bitter herbs. In old England, men used to shave their beards on Maundy Thursday, as this was a time to cleanse the body as well as the soul to prepare for Easter (Resurrection )

Here is another article on “Pascha” vs. “Easter” or “Passover” vs. “Eastra”. This man is named Michael Harper and is a little stronger in his words. Click on the link http://www.orthodoxresearchinstitute.org/articles/fasts_feasts/harper_pascha_easter.htm -- to read the entire article but here is an excert.

This is a much more important subject than a mere dispute about words. If the word in English is Easter, then one is bound to ask "what word?" Was there some word which, when translated into English, became "Easter"? The plain answer is "no". There is one simple reason for this, Jesus Christ in the days of his flesh never visited these shores, and his words were not written in English. He spoke Aramaic, and his sayings were recorded in Greek, as were the words of the other NT writers like Paul and Peter. An example of the desire to replace the word "Pascha" with "Easter" is the King James version translation of Acts 12:4 which describes the arrest of Peter by Herod and his intention "after Easter to bring him forth to the people". The Greek word here is pascha, and all modern translations rightly now translate the word "passover"

We need to realise also that there is no equivalent word for "Easter" in the Greek language, for one simple but important reason, the word is an Anglo-Saxon word for a pagan festival. The word in its original use is entirely pagan. According to the English Church historian Bede, it derives from a pagan spring festival in honour of Eastra or Ostara a Teutonic goddess. It has no associations whatsoever with Christ, His death and Resurrection, or indeed anything Christian. Is it not, therefore, unsuitable to be used to describe the greatest day in the life of the Church? The French, Italians and Spanish do not make the same mistake. Their words come from the proper source — Passover, which in Greek is the word "Pascha".

Like most holidays, especially the Christian ones, its obvious that we have put our own spin on things. What does Easter mean to you? Not really sure on how I feel about this article but I do know that I believe in what the Bible says and whether or not you call it Easter or Resurrection Sunday, it should be recognized as the day that Jesus rose. For He is why we are all here. God is so good. I can not say that enough. No matter what situations I get into, He is always there to lead me back to where I need to be. I don’t know how someone could not believe in Him. So… All this being said…

HAPPY RESURRECTION DAY!!!!!


Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Still Breathing!

So, since moving in we have yet to really have the house in total order...humm I am wondering if it will ever be in order. However, I did get the master bedroom redone and I love it! I will post pictures of it in the next blog when I update about the house.

So far we have visitied a few churches. This is kind of a pain. I wish I could wake up and the perfect church for us as a couple would just be at our front door. We have two that we like though...but we need to do a little more searching before making a decision. Bringing two church backgrounds into a family is not really easy, but we are making comprimises and working it out. I am so thankful to have a great man in my life. He is usually really understanding haha. Most of the time.

We got a really nice and unpleasent surprise at the same time... turns out (although I have not really needed it) the AC is broken and has been broken all month. The nice part about it was that our electric bill was only $37. This was great for our first month and since Im still not working at the moment. Granted we still owed half the deposit so our actual amount due was a little larger but still this is GREAT! I thought it was going to be crazy expensive. After seeing this I wondered if maybe I could tough out the heat when Chris is not home this summer and keep our bill this low...doubt it! It sounds nice though. Ha.

Chris is off working all the time... So I am here in Olive Branch alone all the time...which is good I guess because we aren't married just yet. Lol. However, it is coming up so quickly! Only around 8 weeks left. My parents have been working hard getting the land ready for all of our guest and I finally sent out invitations! I looked at my list and there is still a lot I have to do. First and foremost Chris needs to get his tux...what kind of a wedding would that be if everyone but the groom had a matching tux...haha. Actually it may look just right considering who we are...silly people. Lol. :)

I will be posting anther post really soon about the house updates and all. Several people have been asking about pictures of the house...don't worry they are coming. Just wanted to get it somewhat in order first. No one wants to see a messy house over the internet...you can just come over for that! Hahah. Just playing.

I miss my family and my friends! Love you all!

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Life In Olive Branch

So, since moving here I have had no time at all to post on here so I figured it was time. Lol. We don't have internet and writing a blog on my phone is not the easiest thing to do. Chris and I got a house in Olive Branch, MS. We are about 1 min from his job so it is really convient. We have been blessed with our first home. We have a nice, 3 bed and 2 bath home, with a big, privacy fenced in back yard. I can't wait to have Bama, my lab up here. It has been a big adjustment. I have been here almost two weeks and I am learning a lot and learning it quickly. I have a lot of worries and some days are much harder than others but I make it through. I am here alone most of the time... Being that Chris works so much on the road... And that we are not married yet... I'm at the house alone. I've been Job searching... This is a downer. Lol. I want to work not only to have extra income but to keep active. Inbetween all of this we are also looking for a new church home. I miss my family... A lot. Growing up and moving away is a lot harder than I thought it would be... None the less I am excited about this new adventure. Scary... And I wish I could spare us some of the hard lessons but... Depending on God is becoming more real everyday.

Here are some pictures of our random adventures since being here. I will upload some of our house soon. I can't wait to have internet!

The pictures are: Chris at lunch, my first home meal here ( chicken and veggies), chickens in our yard (thanks to our neighboors), Chris fixing the furniture we were moving in, and Charlie sitting in Chris's lap watching him play bb on the Xbox. Lol.