***Cast as far as the East is from the West***

So many days, I walk in the same shoes as the day before. The same shoes that make the same mistakes each and every day. I choose to slip them on and I choose when to slip them off. They used to come off on Sunday mornings and back on, on Monday morning, off on Wednesday night, back on Thursday morning. These shoes I have had for way to long... I need a new pair, a solid pair, a pure pair, a cleansed pair, a lifted pair.

Last night I wrote down on a peice of paper those things of which I felt I still needed deliverance from... When I sat down and started writing, it amazed me the things that I wrote down, the things that came from way deep within, that I had buried and hidden for so long. Each day I ask for a renewal... but then I forget to pray. The prayers that I do send up, seem meaningless and empty. I have burdens that wear me down. I have feelings and thoughts that keep me from moving forward in my life.

What is all of this... most certainly not a surprise. Not at all. For I have known all of this and know all of this today. I am cleansed and brought to my knees, I have new revelation... I am again, white as snow. Tomorrow I am as filthy as rags...once again. But I am cleansed again...by HIM alone.

The God I serve, is as far as I am concerned, the ONLY God. He is the almighty and powerful one. For he knows the paths that I walk. But what decision will I make? I choose his way. I choose his name. I choose his will. I choose his words. I choose his light.

Won't you?

For He says...cast your sins, cast your cares, come to Him....

"Casting your sins as far as the east is from the west...." Who can resist the ability to be cleansed any time we ask....

I choose God. I choose to be clean. I choose to be a Evangelist for his kingdom.

In Christ Alone! -Hit the link and listen to the song!

Life again... :)

Mother to 8 now... :)

Did you think I meant mother to 8 CHILDREN??? .....

No, just fish. :) Probably shouldnt have this many in a 10 gal tank, but I couldnt help it. I will probably donate about 4 to my job where they have a small aquarium. I really wanna just keep the bigger ones. They are the cutest, and I dont want them to die. Lol.

Church in the Park

Between weddings and Ice cream!

Yesterday I stayed home sick from work, slept most of the day and thought that I would be better enough to go out with Rachel to Davids Bridal for her gown fitting and to fit my dress. It was a lot of fun, and I felt pretty good for the most part until the end. But, what a night! A lot of good laughs and good friends to share the memories with. I am so happy for her and so blessed and thankful to be her "made of honor". I can not wait to go to haiti in December!

Woke up this morning...sick again. Go figure. So, since I cant have solid foods, ice cream has become my best and worst friend! haha. Chocolate ice cream and I love Lucy in bed = wonderful! However, missing work means missing money...which is not good. It also means I am only that much further behind on my accounts that I am in charge of.

I call him Mr. Fluey...and I dont really like it when he visits me! Haha.

Even when sick, I still feel blessed today. I have enjoyed skypeing with my best friend off and on and relaxing. I am about to start some laundry that should have been done eariler, but my sleep has been off and on.

So much is happening in my life! Yet at the same time, I feel dull at some points. Ha. I have to keep telling myself that God has a plan...and I know he does. Cause if he didnt...i would be in some big time trouble! Wouldn't we all!

Here are some old school pics....Gotta love um! 

Guess what is new!!!

So, I have not been on here in ages! My life has changed so much, been turned sideways, upside down, flipped...what ever else you would want to call it.

First off let me start by, John and I are no longer together. It was kind of a mutual decision, but I feel I hurt him more than he hurt me. I really hate that things had to end, but I know that deep down it was the right decision. Before getting married, we had to make sure and I need a confirmation, and I never got it. I still cherish him and wish and pray for the best for him and his life. Just another chapter turned and ended.

I have started a new job as an administrative assistant/accounts payable at an retirement community here in Mobile. The residents here are amazing. I love talking to them and they treat me so well. Although I am not always as happy as I should be, I am truly thankful to be employed and have an income coming in again.

I left the church that I had attended for so long, in search for something new. In search for a place that was different and expected different than the "usual". I went looking for a place that catered more towards the "young adults" and also let God move and do what ever he wanted instead of sticking to a schedule!

Ended up, Rachel and I visited several churches and came across New Life Community. The first time that I walked in those doors I was over whelmed with love and expectation! I have been attending there several weeks, and last week joined the church. In just a few short weeks, my soul has been fed and I have learned and been forgiven and have even forgiven myself! This church does not have a young adults group...but, God has given me a vision...and I am thinking that it won't be like that for long :) Enough on that...Lol. However, the unity within this church amazes me! They are fairly small, but my goodness, talk about family! I honestly have never seen anything like it, you have to see it and feel it before you know what I am talking about. I have had a life change, I am happier, more joyful, more graceful. I do face my everyday trials...just like today I wanted to chunk the computer out the window at work because I was so frustrated at the administrator and then my computer messed up, BUT I was able to make it through the day by the grace of God.

I am back on the "dating" scene. Just having a good time! I do believe that God will open the doors and he will lead the right man to me in his timing. I have to remind myself that everyday! Its not about what I want, it is about what God has planned for me! And if I do not strive to have what he has for me already, I will never be truly happy.

This year I am: having a major surgery done, hopefully, that will change my life completely, going to HAITI for my best friends wedding!, going to start up a ministry, spend time with the homeless, serve God in any way possible, and I am going to live! What more could you ask for! Just live!

I am so excited about what is in store for me!! I plan to keep up with this blog a lot more now! It is not always easy to find time to sit and write, but I know how therapeutic it can be!

God Bless you!!!

My not so picture perfect life...

So, blogging from an iPhone is not what I consider easy, but, right now it's all I got.

The past week had been an uproar for me, and although I am not ready to go into detail with anyone, God is reallllly working hard on me. I have gotten closer to him in many ways but at the same time, a lot of work has to be done. So many emotions have just fled right through my body.

All I am for sure about... Is God is good... And HE DOES have a plan for me!!!!

On another note, this weekend, Rachel and u are at a condo on the bay. It's been so nice! We went to the farm market, loved it there, got fruits and veggies and ate chicken salad. Then came back and went bike riding for a good while down by the peir and the yatch club. Then made eggplant for dinner with fried plantains... And our bodies somehow ended up out in the FREEZING cold in a semi-warm hot tub, don't ask how we felt getting BACK to the condo!! Haha some people do some real stupid things, but the memories are great!

I guess that's it for right now, gotta full day ahead!!!