Between weddings and Ice cream!

Yesterday I stayed home sick from work, slept most of the day and thought that I would be better enough to go out with Rachel to Davids Bridal for her gown fitting and to fit my dress. It was a lot of fun, and I felt pretty good for the most part until the end. But, what a night! A lot of good laughs and good friends to share the memories with. I am so happy for her and so blessed and thankful to be her "made of honor". I can not wait to go to haiti in December!

Woke up this morning...sick again. Go figure. So, since I cant have solid foods, ice cream has become my best and worst friend! haha. Chocolate ice cream and I love Lucy in bed = wonderful! However, missing work means missing money...which is not good. It also means I am only that much further behind on my accounts that I am in charge of.

I call him Mr. Fluey...and I dont really like it when he visits me! Haha.

Even when sick, I still feel blessed today. I have enjoyed skypeing with my best friend off and on and relaxing. I am about to start some laundry that should have been done eariler, but my sleep has been off and on.

So much is happening in my life! Yet at the same time, I feel dull at some points. Ha. I have to keep telling myself that God has a plan...and I know he does. Cause if he didnt...i would be in some big time trouble! Wouldn't we all!

Here are some old school pics....Gotta love um! 

Guess what is new!!!

So, I have not been on here in ages! My life has changed so much, been turned sideways, upside down, flipped...what ever else you would want to call it.

First off let me start by, John and I are no longer together. It was kind of a mutual decision, but I feel I hurt him more than he hurt me. I really hate that things had to end, but I know that deep down it was the right decision. Before getting married, we had to make sure and I need a confirmation, and I never got it. I still cherish him and wish and pray for the best for him and his life. Just another chapter turned and ended.

I have started a new job as an administrative assistant/accounts payable at an retirement community here in Mobile. The residents here are amazing. I love talking to them and they treat me so well. Although I am not always as happy as I should be, I am truly thankful to be employed and have an income coming in again.

I left the church that I had attended for so long, in search for something new. In search for a place that was different and expected different than the "usual". I went looking for a place that catered more towards the "young adults" and also let God move and do what ever he wanted instead of sticking to a schedule!

Ended up, Rachel and I visited several churches and came across New Life Community. The first time that I walked in those doors I was over whelmed with love and expectation! I have been attending there several weeks, and last week joined the church. In just a few short weeks, my soul has been fed and I have learned and been forgiven and have even forgiven myself! This church does not have a young adults group...but, God has given me a vision...and I am thinking that it won't be like that for long :) Enough on that...Lol. However, the unity within this church amazes me! They are fairly small, but my goodness, talk about family! I honestly have never seen anything like it, you have to see it and feel it before you know what I am talking about. I have had a life change, I am happier, more joyful, more graceful. I do face my everyday trials...just like today I wanted to chunk the computer out the window at work because I was so frustrated at the administrator and then my computer messed up, BUT I was able to make it through the day by the grace of God.

I am back on the "dating" scene. Just having a good time! I do believe that God will open the doors and he will lead the right man to me in his timing. I have to remind myself that everyday! Its not about what I want, it is about what God has planned for me! And if I do not strive to have what he has for me already, I will never be truly happy.

This year I am: having a major surgery done, hopefully, that will change my life completely, going to HAITI for my best friends wedding!, going to start up a ministry, spend time with the homeless, serve God in any way possible, and I am going to live! What more could you ask for! Just live!

I am so excited about what is in store for me!! I plan to keep up with this blog a lot more now! It is not always easy to find time to sit and write, but I know how therapeutic it can be!

God Bless you!!!

My not so picture perfect life...

So, blogging from an iPhone is not what I consider easy, but, right now it's all I got.

The past week had been an uproar for me, and although I am not ready to go into detail with anyone, God is reallllly working hard on me. I have gotten closer to him in many ways but at the same time, a lot of work has to be done. So many emotions have just fled right through my body.

All I am for sure about... Is God is good... And HE DOES have a plan for me!!!!

On another note, this weekend, Rachel and u are at a condo on the bay. It's been so nice! We went to the farm market, loved it there, got fruits and veggies and ate chicken salad. Then came back and went bike riding for a good while down by the peir and the yatch club. Then made eggplant for dinner with fried plantains... And our bodies somehow ended up out in the FREEZING cold in a semi-warm hot tub, don't ask how we felt getting BACK to the condo!! Haha some people do some real stupid things, but the memories are great!

I guess that's it for right now, gotta full day ahead!!!

So Much Bad...to little good.

Last night was a weird, bad, emotional, frightening, whatever else you want to call it, night. Around 11:30, I was just settling into bed, watching a movie on the Wii, when a noise that I could not possibly describe, echoed through the walls of our house. A BOOM BOOM BOOM, BOOOOOOOM...outside, sounding like it was coming through our house. The power struck out, and all three (dad was in NO) of us jumped out and into the hallway. We put on clothes, scared and worried, ran outside, and saw an SUV turned over in our yard. Over the years this has become a common site. Every six months or so, we end up having a drunk person and their car flipped in our front yard. No thanks to the massive and sharp curve right in front of our house. While calling 911, Jared helped him out of the upturned side of his Chevy, a dazed, confused, hurt, drunk man came out. I was worried sick. While on the phone with the police station, Jared was checking out the car making sure no one else was in the car...I turned around to check on the man, he pleaded he needed no ambulance...i begged to differ.

By the time I had inspected the vehicle, I heard Bama(our dog) barking bloody murder, and the drunk guy was gone. He had jumped our electrical fence and ran off.

Inspecting the damage...awful. Power pole COMPLETELY snapped, wires shredded, ground dug up, 4 signs dragged down, lots of glass...etc. and the power was out all up and down the street. The damage will explain itself in the pictures.

By the time the State tropper, and some other fellows showed up, nothing had changed, until...

About a hour and a half into the inspection/cleanup process, there was a baracade on either side of the power lines...all I remember is hearing all these people screaming and the sight of a Tacoma truck racing through the baracade and coming around that corner in the wrong lane...not stopping. First thought through my mind..."another wreck, this time straight into the power pole lying on the street...big explosion". However, the state tropper and others were able to stop him about 10 from this "night/day dream explosion" of mine, and immediatley the driver was arrested. He had two girls with him also. He was drunk to. The girls were taken into custody but I didnt get to ask about them after being so cold that I deciede to retrieve to the porch with my family and neighbors.

Four drunks...two trucks...

We do not know what happened to the guy in the wrecked vehicle...Whether he is dead or alive.

This morning we finally got power back. I am very thankful for the men that come out of their comfy, warm homes, to help us.

On top of this...I have seen a lot of bad things lately. Yesterday on along with the wreck...an elderly couples house was burnt down to the ground in our area, a little boy was struck and killed by a vehicle a few miles down the road, and the wrecker that came to our house said there had been four more drunk accidents within the past three hours of when the wreck at our house was.

Today, three houses down, an elderly man was being taken wrapped up by an ambulance, we drove down the road a ways, and saw cop cars and ambulances at an elderly place, then alert cops driving up and down 98. I have known several people to die lately to...

Needless to say, I am kinda scared. I am scared to drive around the curve in front of my house, in fear that I may not make it around due to a drunk driver. I am in fear that one day, the vehicles will miss a block from the road and make it into or in contact to my house or a neighbor and really hurting or killing someone. It alwasy seems the drunks live...the innocent die.

What is happening to the world? Maybe I am just not realizing it...and it has been going on forever.

We can only pray...

This is the second truck...more drunks!

A very merry Chistmas and a Happy New Year!

Wow, it has been forever since I have written on my blog. But, what a wonderful time these past two months have been.

Work is going great. It is completely different than that of my old job, it is laid back and relaxed. I thank God every day for giving me this opportunity.

So, Christmas came and went. It was wonderful however. John got me a wii and my parents got me some very nice stuff and a flat screen tv. I was a very happy girl this year. Lol...as always.

Since Christmas, I have been off and on sick and New Years was spent at my second home, the home that I housesit at often, playing Mario on the wii. Sounds so relaxing huh...didnt even see fireworks.

My best friend is now engaged...so so happy for her. She and Dorly will most likely be getting married within the next year. So, that is a new adventure ready to pop open...likely to be busy and fast! It will be here before we know it.

My best friend and I have also decided that since we will both (most likely) be getting married within the next year or so that would start a "Bucket List Before Marriage" for the two of us. Which includes things like trips and adventures we want to take before stepping into marriage. I am very excited about this. I will post them when we figure out everything we want to do!

I spent the new year praying on my knees 5 min. before and 5 min. after midnight, leaving 2010 and entering 2011 in prayer...it was AWESOME! I would not have traded it for the world...

This year is going to be good. I can feel it.

Da da dee da da AYY?

Lol, I am feeling pretty random tonight.

Today was a pretty good day for the most part. I had a job interview with the company my dad works for, JCI. It was interesting. I am praying that I get the position, one because I really, really, need it and two, it is a great company to work for and would do me well in the long run!

Whatever happens, I know God has a plan! On the other hand, My love is sick and I can not be with him. I hate it when he gets like this and I can't take care of him. But, until we are married we are just limited to the things we can do. :( Still, I wish I could be the one making him soup and telling him to go lay down. Lol. One day...

What do you think about this COLD weather!? I am loving it, although it was very nippy today! The only thing that I could do without is the part where the cold air slams you in the face and it takes your breath away. Lol. No thank you. Other than that, BRING it on!

I miss my daddy today. He won't be home again until Thursday, like every week. But today for some reason I miss him more than usual. Maybe it was because I was interviewing at his company or something...I dont know, really. I will be glad when he is home.

This weekend has a lot in store. I have a photography shoot on saturday, as well as an evening with the love of my life. On sunday we are going to another Christmas concert with my family. I love them. This time of the year makes me so happy.

However, being broke around Christmas comes with the worst feeling. I love to buy for people, but I am barely able to do it this year. Everyone is having a tough year, but I was reminded today that it is not the gifts that we give to each other but the gift that was GIVEN to us over 2000 years ago that counts...its the only thing that counts! How awesome. It made me feel a lot better. But, then again, I dont really care all that much about getting the gifts for myself, but I can not stand not buying my parents, jared, john, his family etc. gifts! Its taking a lot in me from not running to the stores and blowing up a credit card! Lol.

Oh well, this Christmas I think I will challange my family and friends to, instead of buying an extra "just want" gift, maybe go to the soup kitchen or go feed the homeless...I love that kind of stuff, and we need to do more of it! I miss working with the homeless and I need to start it up again.

Here are some pics of when Rach and I used to go downtown once a week with the homeless...

A heavy heart.

I have to ask God for everything...Life is overwhelming at the moment.

 The things that make me happy :

This man...John Cody Hestand. He is my world, my everything.

My best friend...She is always there to make me laugh. I love you Rach!

These three...are a mess. But so very loyal.

My family...three people who support me in all good things i do, and will never let me down. 

This is all I have...God, my family, John, rach, and my loving animals...its ALL i need.