Just A Tad Bit...MAD!

I dont understand this! I am so aggrivated. I am working my butt off to find work and my family gives me no credit for it. All I hear is well can you do this, can you do that, things that I dont mind doing around the house, but they are things that were once done by another individual as part of their duties. Now its, well (he/she) is working now so you need to...yada yada yada! Make me feel like crap why dont you! Go ahead, call me Ms.NoJob. I already feel useless. I don't spend money, cause I am about out of it. I dont go driving all over town, to save gas. I dont sit at home every day waiting on the world to change, God won't let me. And yet, people look so down on me. This one individual person who, now, has a job working evenings, thinks (he/she) is IT! They do whatever, leave food out, just like today...I walked in and the mayo, bread, meat, chips, and knives with mayo on them all open on the counter! I am at least trying to make a effort to cleaning up, making dinner, doing the dishes, cleaning house while my parents are gone! I'm to old to be here. I fight with a 16 yr old who has no respect and doensnt care about the world around himself/herself. UHHH! So frustrating. This one could get away with murder because no matter what is said or done, he/she will still believe they are right. One min they are disiplined and the next its "no, I dont have to" and they go on about their own business and noone wants to fight because it takes to much energy!

Lord help me live here...and help me to get out by this next year. Please!

What this individual gets to LEAVE OUT. 

 

Being Bored.

Have you ever been sitting around your house doing nothing and catch yourself wondering about the many things you could be doing and aren't. Lol. To me, thats boredom. FYI: its excatly what I have done today! Ha. I have done a few things today that were much needed...but other than that, I haven't even done my hair! Blah. Why do people do this to themselves? Its a must to often occurance to people.

Just a thought for the day..lol.

Uncertain Life

The title to this entry says it all, don't you think? I think most of us go through our daily lives feeling uncertain on the inside while we put on a mask of positive certainty for the rest of the world to see. I have started reading Amos and it has brought light to my current situation..no job, no money...etc. God has taught me that even in my midst of troubles, no job, and all he can still use me to his glory. I have learned that MAYBE God had a reason for me to be free or to have free time for this current day. But, have I really been listening and doing what he may be asking of me? I have had many sleepless nights, and not until recently have I began to think that maybe there was a deeper reason, than just being stressed out, for this also. My best friend told me to just sit up and say  "okay God, I am here" and see what happens. All this week it has been on my heart to read Amos...I am not really sure what I will get out of it but I am taking a leap of faith forward and going to see what God has out there for me. Its just an uncertain road. The only thing that I know for sure is that I serve one awesome God and he is alive!

God has been doing so much in my life lately as well as the lives of the people around me. There is so much that I want to jump for joy about. Have you ever had an "out of body" experience? They are scary and awesome at the same time. It is in my heart to reach others. I believe that God has told me to reach out to people...and i just havn't done it. Shame on my part. I love immersing myself in God...worship, gatherings with other fellowship, devo talk, prayer...I love it all. John and I have decided to go looking after a church that fit both our needs spiritually. The church we have been attending has been great. The pastor is the only thing really that has kept my interest. The music is to, well "concert" style. Lights, smoke, etc. Sometimes I feel like it kind of takes away. Also, I know noone there! Not a single person talks to you when they see you, noone fellowships within the service...its almost unwelcoming. I am needing a place where I can get immersed in and learn and grow deeper with other Christians.

I know God has a plan...I am just praying that he show himself to me and John.

"For I know the plans I have made for You"- I always like to quote scripture and then say "Love, God"

He is part of His plan...I know it! :)

Seward Farms

I just love the fall! It makes me a whole new person! Today John, myself, Jamie, and Kam went to Sweard farms for a day out of fun! It was awesome! Hayrides, animals, jumping pillow, corn cannons and much more. I love doing these kinds of things. Being outside and having a good time just enjoying what God gave us. Here are some pictures!

LeM Photography

I have had my own photography business for a while now. I kind of slowed down a lot when I took my last job at RFI. However, I am back in the swing of things. I love it! It is a real passion of mine and I am hoping that I can build up my business again! Maybe I can do it instead of working...well photography is a lot of work! Dont get me wrong on that! Sometimes its very stressful...but it gives me a new wind!

Here are some examples of my stuff....

A Dad's Song

 Watch this video...its for all you dads out there!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fZa7hU6tP_s&feature=player_embedded

Tide's Day Out with Me!

This morning I got up, got ready, and took Tide to the vet. However, the day didn't go as simple as that sounds! Hah! We got to Lucedale and I went round and round looking for that vets office! It was crazy! I finally called mom and she was able to tell me that it was on a county road within the downtown area, I then was able to match it up on maps! We finally got there and he was such a doll! He was so good in the car, just sat there with his paw on my arm looking out the window! When he got into the docs he went up to every dog in there, said hello, then came back and laid at my feet. To cute! I can honestly say that he is the most even tempered dog we have. Hehe. So $70 later, we left Lucedale. I decided that I wanted to take a detour...well that ended us up in Cintronelle. Wayyyy off course! However, I decided to stop by a friends house there, but she wasn't home. Then on the way home from there, I decided that I would try and remember my way back to Jennie's house. I hadn't been there in a long time. It took me a couple of wrong turns and going back and forth, but I found her house. And what do you know...the girl (Jamie), whom I was going to see in Cintronelle was there! So it all turned out good. The whole time Tide was just as happy as could be. We played with Jennie's new puppy (adorable!) and talked for a bit, then headed back to the house! He got so sleepy! He was nodding off standing up in the seat! It was so cute...and sure enough, he is outside asleep. He had a long, busy day! But, I think he would do it again...especially if he knew he would get 2 hamburgers again ;)

Here are some pics from today

Me with Jennie's adorable new puppy!

He fell asleep riding home from his long day! He was standing up! So cute!

On Our way to the vet! He was a great riding partner!